I had to post something...somewhere.

I have been going through a rough spot in my life. I have friends...and yet, I am just alone in my own crowd. For the second? time in my life, I feel ALIVE...and i just don't know what to say. I guess you could say i am writing this blog in the eventuality that i die and someone in the world wanted to know me, my life and who I am...

I am not a writer...I am not to terribly special in any way...I don't stand out from the crowd pretty much at all...but i dream. I want to fly away and leave this place behind, i want to do so much, but i am stuck in this place.

I guess i am jumping around a bit right now, the emotions are just way to raw for me. I know this because i read my last sentence, and usually it would be "i apologize for jumping around in conversation, but my emotions are raw"...but i can't even think that shit through right now.

I guess what i want to say on this first post...is that this will be a recording of my life, and i will try and start back a ways and pull it forward. This is not going to be a normal or happy retelling of my life...and it may be even pretty boring...but this is going to be for me...