I have been in hell during this choice, litterally hell. I cannot eat, think or do, i just workout and waste away.
What the hell is wrong with this world. When two people share feelings...why is that never enough?
Why does this hurt so god damn much and why cant i get her out of my head
She chose him. Drew. I...I...shee didn't choose me. That is what she said to me. That is what she needs to say. I am not the one. but with all these feelings..
I am going down a spiral. fast. I don't know how to stop it. I don't know if i want to stop it. I don't know if i can stop it, but i know i want to be with her...
and up till yesterday when she put on a brave face and told me her choice, i know she wanted...needed this too.
This is the second time cheating on her boyfriend. The other one was for the wrong reasons...this was for all the right ones. She is so confused and I want to help her, to hold her, to let her know that i will be there...but how can i?
It was such a short time together...Maybe i invested more than i should have. I was open, 100% with her. I have told her nothing but the truth. I don't want this to end...Not like this. i want it to run it's course...but this is worse...this is an attack.
HOW CAN I LIVE WITH THIS MUCH PAIN????????????
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